July 2011
God, I miss him so much more than I'd ever planned on or wanted to. Eff my life :/
I'm being overwhelmed with a feeling of emptiness.
I have this empty, hollow feeling in my chest. It’s not just empty, either, its painfully empty. It literally hurts, and it’s overwhelming and suffocating me. To the point where my breathing isn’t even regular because of it. Maybe this is me physically missing you. Well…I don’t know about that, more than likely it’s probably nothing at all like that. It’d be more likely for it to be a heart attack or panic attack or something. But if it was possible to physically miss someone, this is what it’d feel like. What it’d feel like to miss someone with “every fiber of your being”. I feel so lost and worthless when I’m like this. It makes me wish things would change, even though I know they never will.
