June 2011
Why can't I be happy, for once?
It happened again. I fell for a guy that was just using me. Why do I keep doing this to myself? I don’t know. Maybe cause I keep hoping things will be different with this one. Well, I’m not doing that anymore. I’m putting up a wall to keep out…everyone. Fuck people. I end up trusting and caring about people too easily and they always use me and treat me like crap. But I...
starsinmyeyes-glitterinmyveins asked: I feel like you need to know that someone loves you. So here I am, reminding you that I love you. You're one of my best friends, even if we have our rough times and are bitches to one another sometimes. That doesn't change the fact that I'll always be there for you. Any time of any day. I love you. I just hate what you're becoming. You're beautiful. Don't let them use...
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Sooo…I like this guy. He’s cute, funny, gentlemanly and nice to me. Even though he’s probably not a good person for me to be likeing right now, I can’t help it. He’s so adorable, he has these amazing eyes, and a cute smile. I like being around him and talking to him. I love when he calls me cause I like the sound of his voice and how he can always make me smile and...
"I got hurt. Really hurt. And sometimes when that...
This quote I found pretty much explains my life right now. I constantly keep getting hurt, used, and treated like total crap. I get hurt by the people I care about most all the time. And whenever that happens it actually feels like something inside me is shutting off. At least for the time being, I usually get better with time though. I get depressed, which sometimes leads me to be kinda bitchy...
More depressing late-night stuff.
I don’t like being depressed. I wish I could just be genuinely happy. I hate my life. I hate faking smiles to please people when I’m really torn apart inside. I hate that my ex is more concerned with how much money he spent then the fact that he lost me. I hate that I’m now letting 3 guys use me. I don’t care anymore. About anything, really. I feel so worthless. I wish I...
I really hate my life right now. I’m so depressed. I’m tired of being used by guys that I actually care about. But it’s not their fault, I let them do it. I want just one guy to actually care about me. Not use me, lead me on, lie to me, treat me like crap, or get what they want and stop talking to me. I hate it when they do that, but I don’t tell them. They think I want it,...
